Caution! Proceed with care.

This past week has been a roller coaster whirlwind. It started off with my violently ill and sick to my stomach. The worst part about it is that I took the brunt of it at work. Wild cramping and trips to the bathroom. I tell ya I counted milliseconds to the end of my shift.
I managed to get home ( I have no idea how) and passed out. Thank God for sisters and brother in laws whom so kindly watched my children.
I wasn't so bad the next day but my stomach has been tender since and nothing sits in it right. I always feel a little sick...it is getting better though but what a flu! So needless to say I expected a great weight loss, not that I was proud of my not eating. I tried to force myself but it was to bloody hard with how sore my stomach was. Today I even had a time. I managed to get a banana and two pieces of bacon for breakfast but that was all I could stomach.
So that was the flu.. I also got fired but not in so many words. My husband gave up the cleaning contract I managed because the manager of the place was complaining about this I had already done just because my husband wasn't in town. I don't know where he comes off at but there will be no more of that.
I also gave away my poor sweet dog. Now I can have the flu and get fired any day of the week over letting go of my dog. She was the ugliest thing in the world but she was mine....oh gosh I 'm gonna miss her.

So with all that said when I jumped on the scale this morning I weighed in at a whooping 180. No i didn't do a dance, and no I didn't scream in happyness. I just nodded my head and preceeded with my morning. Its a great loss but it also might screw me up in the weeks to come. I could be dehydrated, I could be starving for food. Who knows...I guess time will tell.

Back On Track Finally!!!

I'm tickled pink to report a 1.5 Ib Loss, sure its not great but its much better then what I was weighing in at the last few weeks. I'll take it! there's no way I'm going to meet my goal of 182 by the 29th but I'm damn well gonna try! I'm doing so well, I just have to step it up a notch I know I can do it! I only have three weeks left in my course and I know I can do that in less then three weeks. So I figure I have a few choices go at it easy paced and step up each a notch or throw myself into one. I think I'll step up each one. I'm not gonna set any goals but I'm really gonna brain storm and try some different things so I can find whats right for me.
First order of the day: When I get off work I'm taking my daughter out for a mommy daughter day. We deserve it!

Anxious!

Just like the title suggests, I'm way to anxious in a terribly bad way for tomorrows weigh in. The last two weeks (not including this week) I've been stalled, PLateau'd whatever you call it in my weight loss. I feel like I've wasted two weeks of my time and effort I don't want to make it three.
If I am stalled the scale will show 189 or higher....god I hope not and that will mean I either need to make a change or add something new and I'm just not ready.
I've stated earlier that my diet has become placee and easy almost non rewarding, maybe I jinxed myself by saying that. Figures.
I guess time will tell.....>Eck

Easy?

So i'm sitting here at work trying to think of ways to get my self excited about my weight loss again. Last Friday was a crummy weigh in so I've been slightly down on myself. I know I shouldn't be but well, shit happens. So I'm trying to think of ways to get myself as excited as I was before when I first started. Perhaps incorporating some excerise would do it but I just don't have the time yet! I wanna spend every waking moment of extra time I have on my accounting course to get it finished. Once I'm done its gone, fini! I never have to spend time on it again and I'm free to excerise!
Until then I've been doing fine with my eating and moderate excerise. I have a part time job cleaning which keeps me on the go and I clean my house just about all day while the kids are up so I'm constantly on the go there to.
I think i'm bored with my diet. I mean its still hard to say no to cookies. Just today I was filling up the cookie jar at work and found one that had a broken piece off it. I was so tempted to pop that sinful piece into my mouth which would cause a terrible chain reaction resulting in many more cookies consumed...but I put it into the jar and walked away. Maybe its because I just don't feel rewarded anymore for my healthy choices.
I just feel bleh..not great but not bad either.
I need motivation people!!

Stalled?

Urggg not a good weigh in I hope I'm not plateau'ing I jumped on the scale and I was 189. I mean with my official weigh in last week being 193 I should be astounded. But I'm not becasue I had a reading of 189 last week in the morning. So I'm not pleased. I actually quite bumed....
Oh well I guess I'll have to take it as it is and be happy I didn't gain. 189 it is.
I reviewed my diet and discovered perhaps I shouldn't be eating as many bananas as I have been lately. I've been having sugar rushes and cravings which are actually quite new to me.
I was eating raisins and Banana's to quell the sugar craving (which it did ) but discovered that the sugar in them makes them high in Carbs...Bummer. So while I'm not going to cut them out completely I'm gonna cut down on them. At least they are way better then chocolate and pie!

I'm not gone!

Wow been such a long time since I updated... I could go on and on about why I was so busy and didn't have time but the truth of the matter is that I didn't make time. Bad me!
So not alot has happened. I gorged myself over Christmas. Actually I only had about 4 bad days in total. My downfault is pie and cookies, chocolate and anything sweet.
I can eat quit normal meals with no problem. Cutting out pasta and potatoes and bread and heaping on the vegetables is sooooo easy. Potatoes just don't taste as heavenly as I thought and bread just hurts my stomach. But when we have sweets around its like a switch goes off in my head and I can't turn it off. I must eat them and sample every kind!
Crazy i know but I'll accept it for what it is. I didn't loose weight over the christmas week. I didn't record a weigh on purpose. I was only aiming for weight maitenance instead of loss that week. I really thing I did loose weight though. I jumped on the scale and it showed a .5 gain but I'm sure that was from all the cookies.
ON Friday the 1st my first initial weigh in fo 2010 I was 189! I was estatic! what a great loss over the christmas holidays!
When I jumped on the scale later that night I was 193..pooey!
The only reason I jumped on the scale again and actually recorded the difference as my actual weight is because I was doing a little challenge with my sisters.

It goes like this: Each of us puts 50 bucks in to a pot. A sort of entry fee if you will.
We all took measurements and photo's as unflattering as they were and the goal is is to loose as much weight doing our own thing by March 1st.
Whoever looses the biggest percentage of weight will win the entire pot! I intend to win it!
Now I challenge you to do the same.

New years resolutions:
Use less product in my hair ( I think its thinning)
Loose weight, get to healthy weight this year.
Wear bikini in summer
Gain confidance and become more out going
Excersie
Drink way more water.