Goals

I've been thinking... I'm going to challenge myself. I want to hit wonderland by Christmas but at this point it looks very very achievable. I want to challenge myself to achieve 197. I think its very doable if I stepped it up a notch and drank more water and somehow incorporated a little bit of excerise into my routine.
I'm excited about my new goal and anxious to start working on it. I SOOOO want to get some excersie its just so out of the picture right now because of how far behind I am with my school work. An hour spent excersing can be an hour spent catching up.
I think I'll forgo driving out to the farm on my days off again so I can sit my butt down and start working on more homework. The farm house can wait, I need to get this done.

Lower....

So yesterday I reported a gain and I was bummed about it. I know I cheated once or twice during the week but I didn't think I'd gain from it. Actually I knew I hadn't gained from it. So I weighed myself throughout the day ( I hope thats not cheating) and got 203 right before I went to bed. So after a long day of eating and moving around I got a lower reading. I'm going to record the 203 instead of the 205.5 and hope this isn't going to be a trend, If it is then I'll start recording the weight I get in the morning and keep with it.

Blah Blah Blah and more Blah

Ick what a horrible week. I've been so tired lately with my trying to catch up in my studies and I'm wearing myself thin. I'm not going to catch up though I apply myself just about every night and don't get any further then a regular day would get me. Nothing is coming easy so I can't zip through anything.
The last time I posted was last friday just after weigh in So today makes my next weigh in and I'm completely bummed about it. I avoided weighing myself this morning, partly because my Bf was over and partly because I knew the numbers weren't going to be good. Well it wasn't.
It was mid afternoon by the time I did jump on the scale but there's no doubt in my mind I did not consume enough food to equal my gain. I weighed 205.5 today. That's only a 0.7 gain and its probably a false reading due to many factors but its still got me bummed.
I haven't been ....how do you say....regular? the entire last week so I think thats the biggest factor in this weight gain. I'm doing a few different things to try adn change that. I'll take a new weigh in when I feel comfortable doing so. Until then I'll just hang tight and not cringe to much at my .7 gain. It could be worse and although I stuck to my diet mostly I did cheat a little. Cheat free weeks are hard for me but I'm still working on it.

Looooooong week

So I seen my ex husband off on Wednesday, early in the morning. He seemed pretty eager to get home, probably to meet his new woman that he had been chatting to the whole time he was down here. Right after he was out the door my bf pops in, brought me eggs so I could make breakfast.
We had eggs mixed with onions and green pepper with three pieces of bacon each. It was yummy! Afterwards we went shopping ( more window shopping then anything for me) And since it was his birthday I broke down and cheated. I had a poutine... I've been bad all week. Had a sandwich earlier in the week to. I tried to be reasonably and didn't eat it alland for the rest of the day I didn't have anything out side the limits of my diet until we got to cake....I had half a piece of birthday cake. It was a little to sweet for me. Normally I'd have two pieces with ice cream because its SOOOOO good. But after having a few bits I experienced what I've heard a few other people saying. It just didn't taste as good as I thought it was going to. So instead of eating it all waiting for that taste to come I threw it out before I had any second thoughts and went to my second job. Yeah for me!

Yesterday I didn't do so well. I had the remainder of the cake just sitting there taunting me all day, begging for me to just sample it. I managed to get all the way to 8pm before I cut up a piece and ate it. Again it just wasn't what I thought it was going to be but I did eat the whole thing. Phewy. When I look at the broad spectrum I did well. One and a half pieces is much better then my old norm of half the cake. And when weighed in with the rest of the week its no so bad because I mostly stuck to it.

Late night...

I decided to go out last night with my bf. He wanted to go for dinner and I wanted to see the Nitty Gritty Dirt Band which was playing in one of our local bars. So we bought are tickets for 70 bucks...a little much if you ask me and then went to Egan McSweggans for dinner. Apon arrival we found it to be much to busy ( there wasn't an empty table to be found) and decided on Boston Pizza instead. BP's was just as bad but we did manage to find a table, it was dirty but the waitress cleaned it for us promptly. Promptly really isn't a word you hear around Grande Prairie all that much. Service is terrible here and you just kinda get used to it. Anyways the menu turned out to be Atkins non friendly. Of course there were salads in it but nothing that looked all that appetizing. So I failed and ordered a sandwich. Atkins no no the bread....I did pick the cruton's off my salad but ate the bread with my sandwich.

In my defence I was hungry and I ate everything while my bf ended up leaving more then half his dinner on the plate.

So after dinner we went over to see the band, it was packed when we got in there at 9 or just after but we decided to stay and push our way through the crowds. By 10 the band started up and it started to get so packed I doubt you could fit any more people in there. By 10:30 I had had enough and was over heated and feeling sick so my Bf and I left. What a waste of money!

Oh well by the time we got home I passed out anyways. I guess I didn't realize how tired I was.

Friday......

Dun dun duh!!!!.... The dreaded friday the 13th! Aww its not so unlucky. I love fridays and I love the number 13 (probably because not many people do) My life has always been wrought with bad luck so friday the 13th is just another typical day for me. Anyone supertituos? Do you do anything special to ward off bad luck?

So today was my weigh in day, every friday of every week. I wanted to make myself wait until after work but I was to curious and jumped on the scale when I was freshly out of the shower. (No extra weight added by clothes) Low and behold I'm down almost 2 pounds. I'm so happy with myself. I did have two slip ups but they weren't so bad. Now I just need to keep up the good work and hopefully be slim in no time...Hahahaha yeah I know funny...

Oh so tired......

The last two days have been steady. Not so much hectic but I've been on the go and its go go go. I guess getting back to my daily week of work is my time to relax. Monday and Tuesday was spent out at the farm house trying to fix it up to make it more appealing to potential buyers. Gosh I want that house to sell. I want it to sell so badly so I can go to school and pay off my mountains of bills. I won't go into detail about how I didn't make them, my ex husband played that part.
So anyways Monday morning was get up, have breakfast and go. We were out the doors by 9:30 am. We meaning me, the ex husband and my children. Does that seem like a decent time or am I still getting up late and getting my day off to a late start? I spent the whole day putting putty on walls. Who knew puttying could take so long? I have bruises all over the fronts of my legs and knees from getting on and off my chair all day. Its not one of those normal height chairs either. Its exceptionally high because the table we had out there was counter height.

Tuesday was spent sanding all my putty imperfections down and reapplying to different spots that were to finely sanded or "missed" I guess my ex complained that I spent to much time in there. *Shrug* I like to have everything just so, might even call me a perfectionist but I do not think my skills with the putty knife are good enough to warrant perfection. Once my walls are painted I'm sure they'll look good but I'm also sure there will be lots of imperfections.

So because of all the work and how far out we were and the lack of proper food and don't forget lack of ambition to make anything. ( I was exhausted) I flubbed up a bit. We ordered Chinese....DUM DUM DUM!!! (Insert evil scary music) I had light breaded pork... not to bad....and breaded chicken balls... again not to bad but enough to throw me over the do not cross carb line. The following day was no better we went to A&W. I selected chubby chicken, while I did a little better that time I still ate some skin...Bad Jancie! I did pull of most though I was almost in diet breaking mode but I managed to come out half assed. Perhaps I'll do better next time.

So today wasn't to bad, I ate a little to much but its not portion control I'm after. I'm counting carbs and trying to keep it as low as possible. I cut out my daily timmies yesterday but still had coffee this morning with french vanilla creamer. I used to think that the creamer was ok in moderation since it has about 10 -12 carbs in 2 tablespoons. Normally that would be ok but I drink coffee like there's no tomorrow so I have to look into a good milk subsitute. Splenda works fine for me as a sugar substitute, I can use as much as I want since there are no carbs but I usually use half the amount I would otherwise use with sugar because I find it almost too sweet.

So tomorrow morning might be spent looking for a milk substitute for coffee. I need to find some good no cal snacks also, something ready made or I can prepare before hand that will keep for a while. A substitute for bread would be good too. I've been using cheese lately as my bread substitute but that grows old fast.

So other the that I bought a new scale and I weigh a little less on it then my husbands old one so technically I have a new weight. I'll take my measurements here soon too so I can have everything ready to go for a new start with a new scale.

I wonder how fattening coffee really is? Lately I've been given two or three XL double double's every day. I've never limited myself on what I'm allowed to drink besides whats obvious. Root beer floats anything genuinely labeled as fat in a cup...

But thats got me thinking, since I drink so much coffee just how bad is it for me?

I know its my excuse for not drinking so much pepsi....diet mind you. I'm not getting the water in like I should but I'm working on it and doing better. I actually drank a whole bottle of water yesterday (which is an accomplishment for me) and I was bloated! I'm talking so bloated rings weren't budging of my fingers.

So anyways here is what I found.

Nutrition FactsServing Size: 14 oz
Amount per Serving
Calories 230
Calories from Fat 108
% Daily Value *
Total Fat 12g 18%
Saturated Fat 7g 35%
Trans Fat 0.4g
Cholesterol 50mg 17%
Sodium 50mg 2%
Total Carbohydrate 26g 9%
Dietary Fiber 0g 0%
Sugars 26g

Est. Percent of Calories from:
Fat 47.0% Carbs 45.2%

Alarming....slightly....time to lay off the coffee now....shoot. I have to look into a good milk substitute for myself as well something to put in my homemade coffee that won't be as alarming as my double doubles.

*Sigh*

Eeeeeek!!

Been so long since I posted, its been a roller coaster ride with flu season in full swing, the scare of H1N1 and my kids actually coming down with...whatever it was they got. I haven't been giving the attention to my diet that it certainly deserves, I have however maintained my current weight very well though. Looks like I can diet for half the day while binging the other half and maintan my current weight.
With halloween just passed, the stress from school and work and my soon to be ex husband in the mix I found it extremely hard to stay on track. Actually the only one plaguing my results is the ex husband he constanly wants to go out and eat, always lining me up to fail. Thats probably why I can maintan so well. When I'm at work I"m not around him and I can make better choices.

He hasn't left yet but my resolve is not broken, I want to achieve the mini goal I set for myself awhile ago of being under 200 by christmas. I have just under 2 months to do it so I know I can and will. 10 pounds every two months from now on is going to be my goal. Its reasonable and completely accomplishable. If I loose more thats great!