Finally!!

When I jumped on the scale this morning I read 172! Finally, I see movement in the right direction. My hard work payed off this week. I've been running on my gazelle just about every night. Granted I took wednesday off to re coup and Friday because I was over tired.
I had a few slip ups such as eating a bag of chips and a few to many second helpings but I'm working on it. I'm so proud of myself for getting back on track and getting right back into it with vigor!
I worked out this morning for 40 mins on my gazelle. I ate good but i didn't get my little 7 minute running on the spot in. However I might try to get that in when I get home. I might be to tired but at least I got my 40 mins in so I'm not going to complain.

So behind.... Life is at a pause and maybe sifting back.

I know, I barely post. I mean to. I want to. But life just gets me down and I'm dealing the best I can. Dealing with my ex husband is no small chore, the money for my car payment was withdrawn by him so my car went NSF. I know its not as big of a deal as I make it out to be. Just call the company and rearrange to pay it. My problems and stress lie deeper then that. My husband...ex husband is my problem. I left him for a reason and I want so badly to be able to cut ties with him. Fighting on the phone would be the least of my problems. Our finiancial obligations are whats got me so down. We keep a joint account open for all our jointly owned pocessions and the payments on them. There is never enough money and lots of NSF fee's. Nothing I can do until we sell the house. Once the house sells we can pay off all the jointly owned pocessions and completely cut ties with each other but until then this is my life and I've been struggling through it for 3 years now. Does it ever end??

I'm soooooo tired.

Yes thats right I'm tired, I was up till three am and up at 7am with my kids for Easter. This sucks I still have to work another 5 hours, will this day never end?

I did terrible on the diet today I just can't stop eating. I'm hungry all the time now. I choose my snacks carefully but the amount I consume cannot possibly promote any weight loss. It didn't help either that I had a few handful's of chocolate today. Hope I can resist it all tomorrow as the chocolate is still in the house.

Lordy Lordy

Oh my Gosh its been so long since I've posted. I guess you can say I've fallen off the band wagon...Boooo. What happened was I plateaued. I hate it, I hate typing it I hate saying it I hate admitting it, I HATE IT.
I shouldn't say I've fallen off completely. I have simply plateaued and just haven't made the nessesary changes to get the weight loss kicking again. The good news is I've stuck true to my diet and have maintained very well. I have snuck in some evil devil treats but I now know that when I am done with loosing weight its not going to be as hard to maintain a decent weight as I once thought.
I've come off the carb diet and started eating two pieces of toast for breakfast and allowing myself carbs here and there. I'm watching Calories now while still keeping the carbs to a minimum as most of the high carb things are full of calories anyway.

So some changes I've made are that I no longer allow myself to bring pepsi to work, this then forces me to drink water. I only drink about 32oz on a good day which I know isn't all that great but its still much better then my normal 0 0z. So thats a work in progress.
I've also brought in my gazelle from the farm so I'm gonna start plugging away on that. Did I mention I hate it? Yes I hate my gazelle, it gets boring and I know I need to find something I enjoy to be able to keep at it, something a little more reasonable to be able to incorporate a life change. Its what i got for now though and its better then nothing. I'm sure I'll find something I like but its gonna take time and alot of hard work. I'll get there.