ARGH! I'm so tired....When I got off work yesterday I went straight to picking up my kids and starting dinner. My girl seems to have a frog in her throat and she's more tired then normal...not up to being her normal crabby self LOL Ahh my poor baby is coming down with something, hope its nothing big I really can't afford to take any time off work. On that note I need to buy my boy a hat and jacket. Time to hit Value Village.
So I failed on my diet yesterday..not miserably but bad enough. I blame it on my boyfriend he taunts me with chocolate and ice cream. My stradegy is and always has been to just not buy it and have it in the house. Then when I have a weak moment I have nothing to indulge in and therefore its so much easier to turn my mind to something else. Nonetheless last week he bought a box of ice cream sandwiches from Dairy Queen..the really irrisitable kind, there must have been 20 of those little things in the box. So far I'm managed to get my hands on three or four and feed the rest to the kids. There is still about 4 or 5 left yet and I don't have the heart to throw them out (I have a terrible time wasting food) so for now I've put them in the basement freezer and made them a little more inaccessible, I've fooled myself for a little while ...until the boyfriend bought home early halloween candy. He said he had a craving. Grrr! I ended up eating ....to many of those and right before bed time to. He's promised me now that he'll take them out of my house and put them in his own....but he hasn't done it yet bloody man.
To sum it all up I'm off to a terrible start. Both day one and day two have been plagued with sweets and ill decisions, oh well today is another day.

Its go time!

So it was Febuary I last posted...my that was a long time ago and it took me alot longer then I thought to get started on my weight lose goals. I think I really started around the Beginning of June... I'm not sure what woke me up excately but leaving my husband and starting a new job certainly might be factors. Heh go figure.
So orginially I was doing very well I started at 237 and I'm currently down to about 215-210 not positive because I don't have a scale. I try to weigh myself every time I go out to my husband's and I martial home and get a number then so I'll try to do that next time I'm there and get a new starting weight. I don't take the scale or buy a new one because I tend to overdue it and jump on the scale way to much which in turn causes mood changes that fluctuate as does with anyone's weight.
So today is my new day one. My diet of choice is A revamped Atkins and by that I mean I try to stick to the Atkins diet namely,...... however I do not deprive myself of fruits and vegetables or pepsi...heh. I've infused my daily habits with water and crystal light (which is also an atkin No-no) I only drink diet pepsi...yes I know water is better for me but I'm breaking a pop addiction so I've brought it down to diet pepsi and only one during lunch and one at super sometimes two. I figured that if i took out everything I love I'll become depressed with my diet and not stick to it. I want to eat the foods I love but in a more healthy manner. Hopefully this way of thinking won't be my undoing.
So living on my own is taking some time to get used to. I have a full time job, as well as a part time job two kids, a dog and a boyfriend and don't forget I'm doing school through correspondance. In other words I have alot on my plate and I have no idea where I'll find time for the excercise I so desperately need. I think right now I'm going to work on staying on track in my diet and getting into a routine, I'll fit in excercise if I can but for now I won't make it the number one priority on my list.
Friday I'll try and get some pictures and measurements as well as a number for weight.